Meg

01:02 am: The Blue Ball: PG Sulu/Chekov pre-slash
Posted this as a response to this post on the st_xi_kink meme and I figured I'd posted it here too because I fail at figuring how this stuff and don't know how to just link my fic and not the entire thread...

The Blue Ball

“So how does this thing work?” asked Kirk, holding the shiny blue orb Scotty had handed him.

Scotty grinned, “Well, thanks to my genius, I was able to find a way for the orb to analyze the brainwaves of its audience and play music according to whoever is closest to it, which is why when you hold the orb it plays ‘Closer’ by Nine Inch Nails.”

“Why is the music so old?” asked Bones, waving his hand as a ‘no’ when Kirk tried to hand it to him. He didn’t want his thoughts projected in music form to the entire mess hall with the entire bridge crew sitting at the table with him.

“I made it out of some old music player we found in the time capsule floating in space a while ago so all of the music is like 300 years old.”

“A fascinating invention, Mr. Scott,” said Spock, “yet I fail to see a practical application.”

Kirk smirked and rolled to ball over to Sulu and mouthed, ‘Give it to Chekov.’

Pavel Andreivich Chekov was so enraptured by what Sulu was saying, he didn’t really notice when Sulu asked him to hold the small blue ball Scotty was bragging about and the music that was playing changed.

“So this guy is HUGE, eight feet tall, 500 pounds, and he came at me with this giant club right?” Sulu said, retelling a story from his latest mission.

I love myself I want you to love me / When I feel down I want you above me

“And I jump out of the way when this crazy chick covered in white hair from head to toe starts yelling, “No, Billy, you can’t kill him, I love him!”

I search myself I want you to find me / I forget myself I want you to remind me

“So I’m like, wait is she talking about me? And then Kirk is all like… Um, Chekov? What’s the deal with the music buddy?”

Pavel flushed bright red as the chorus started playing.

I don’t want anybody else /When I think about you I touch myself /Ooh I don’t want anybody else oh no, oh no, oh no

Everyone was looking at them, laughing behind their hands as Pavel dropped the ball and his eyes grew wide.

“Um, excuse me,” he said and bolted out of the mess hall.

Sulu turned to Scotty, a giant grin on his face, “So you think he seriously thinks about me when he jacks off? Cuz I’m am so cool with that.”

Kirk smirked at Spock, “See, Spock, it has wonderfully practical uses.”

09:56 am: A Thank You
SO I just wanna send out a big thank you to all of the Arashi fans out there. I discovered Arashi my junior year in college, so about 3-4 years ago. I remember searching "Arashi" and "Jun Matsumoto" in a Google Image Search and finding maybe 5 to 10 good pics. I had to go to the Japanese Google to find anything half-way decent. Now try it and you get PAGES of excellent pictures posted by Arashi fans around the world. So thank you, fellow Arashi fans. You've made it infinitely easier for me to find pictures of our boys and for that, I totally love you forever. ^_^

11:51 pm: The new Star Trek movie has been out for what, three weeks now? And fanfiction.net is already flooded with Mary-Sue fics. If I weren't a fan girl myself, I would want to commit genocide. As it is, I'll just have to sit and loathe my own kind.

12:04 pm: Here you go, Aliz! ^_^
1. First Name: Meg

2. Age: 22

3. Location: Indianapolis, IN

4. Occupation: I sit on my lazy ass because I can't find a job with my degree and I haven't broken down to get a different job yet.

5. Partner? Ha! That'll be the day.... :(

6. Kids: Yeah, nooo.

7. Brothers/Sisters: Big brother, George, sis-in-law Kelly, and little sis, Bethany.

8. Pets: Rose, kitty.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
1. Going to a wedding in Virginia
2. Being a camp counselor
3. Going to Teresa's wedding in Ohio and being a bridesmaid
4. Going on vacation in Michigan.

10) Where and for what did you go to school for? Olivet, and art. a week away from OFFICIALLY getting me degree... hopefully.


11) Parents? Steve & Cindy. Woo.


12) Who are some of your closest friends? Ruth, Teresa, Aliz, Hannah, Trevor, Luke, Julie, Jaie, others. ^_^

08:49 pm: My life right now...
Currently, I am jobless because I am too terrified of failing at life to apply anywhere. I am begging my Fine Arts teaching to change my grade to a passing one so I am not cut off from receiving my degree. And my Dad went to the hospital with heart problems a while ago only to have his stomach shaved, get a staph infection, and now he has MERSA. Which is the staph infection that is not responding to antibiotics. My life sucks.

10:02 pm: Comfort
So I have a friend out there (Aliz) that seems to be in need of comfort and love.

I am not good wit the comforting words, but here is something that always fills me with hope and joy whenever I watch it. Check it out and tell me what you think/ It's best with the sound up loud.

Love you and hope you find something more substantial than this in your time of emo. I love you all the time!!

11:11 pm: My mother's family...
Let me tell you a few things about my mother's family.

My grandparents are both still alive and happily in their nineties. They have one living son and four daughters. My grandparents start the count at 2.

My Uncle Gus is married to my Aunt Bev and they have three children, Nicole, Kurt, and Chris. Nicole is married with a daughter, Kurt married with 4 kids, and Chris married with 2 (maybe more by now. We don't see him... ever.) In this paragraph we have 16 people, our running total is at 18.

My aunt Marcia is married to my Uncle Dale and they have two daughter, Heather and Elizabeth. Elizabeth is married and has 3 sons. Heather has a steady boyfriend she brings to all family events. Counting the boyfriend, we're at 9. Total: 27

My Aunt Marty is married to my Uncle Craig and they have three daughters, Rusann, Brianne, and Lauren. Rusann is married and has one daughter, Brianne is married with one daughter, and Lauren is unwed with two little monsters. That's 11, Total: 38

My Aunt Shelly is not married and has 5 kids, Monica, Wesley, Jacob, Dylan, and Josh. Monica is married with 2 kids, Wesley married with 1 (I think) and the oldest of the younger boys is Bethany's age. Another 11, Our total now 49.

Monica is expecting, so that's going to be 50 in the next few months if Wesley and Chris haven't had any kids I don't know about (which is entirely possible). FIFTY people on my mother's side of the family.

Guess how many came to my brother's wedding.















Are you ready?


















Have you guessed?



















If you guessed 48, you are wrong.













Four. FOUR. Out of FIFTY people in our family who we have invited into our home more times than was our turn (we have a hosting rotation schedule), people who's weddings WE have attended (Including Chris who lives in NYC), people who's children we've helped clothe. Fifty people and four showed up.

Some family, huh?

11:58 pm: So hey, if anyone out there is ever like "Man, I really love Meg. A lot. I want to express this love in the form of a rather costly gift," well, here's some inspiration.

I want this:


I know what you're thinking, "OMG, that's the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life!" Well, I agree and I want it. I want it more than I've ever wanted a handbag before, which honestly isn't saying much because I HATE purses and handbags, but this? This is just adorable.

Unfortunately, is only made and distributed from China, meaning it is $42.00 BEFORE shipping and handling. Booo. So because I loathe handbags, I can't justify spending upwards of $50 on one. That being said, if anyone ever feels the above mentioned urges or notices I have a birthday/graduation/bat mitzvah coming up and wants to (Maybe gather together a group of people together and) buy this for me, below is the url of where it can be purchased. And while I realize that the only person who ever reads this (Aliz) has less moneys than me, you KNOW you have my other friends' cell numbers. Hint for me, my dear, hint with all of your might.

http://www.yesstyle.com/en/Product.aspx?pid=1005038018§ion=bags&

01:24 am: This makes me sick to my stomach.


This a toy made for little girls to play with.

It's a Disney doll, supposed to be one of Ariel's mermaid sisters. You can buy it at any Disney store, plus several others that all look this sickly and deformed.

I want to bash whoever designed this in the head with a Louisville Slugger.

EDIT

After posting this, I went to the Disney website and sent the message below to them via their "Contact Us" button. I encourage you, if you feel the same way as I do, contact Disney and let them know.

I recently went in to a Disney Store, looking at toys for my niece and I happened to see the line of Ariel and Her Sister dolls.

I don't know how to get in contact with the designers of this toy, but I hope it is passed on to someone who matters how angry this toy made me.

Mattel gets flack because of Barbie's proportions, then you guys go and make complete and utter trash like that? When I saw that doll, I was physically sick to my stomach, thinking of my friend's 9-year-old sister who is anorexic and has said she would rather die than be fat. Is that the kind of message you want to send to young girls? That your bust should be 3 times larger than your waist size?

If you're reading this and don't know what I am talking about, look at those dolls because they are disgusting and Disney should be ashamed for selling something like that.

10:27 pm: Why??
So. Freshman year when I suddenly wasn't able to wear any metal jewelry because of a new allergy, I was fine. Sophomore year when I found out I had severe eczema that was constantly made worse by the metal allergy, I was really frustrated, then last year all of a sudden I wasn't able to use any lotions or soaps with scents in them or I'd break out horribly and I was really mad. Now, Senior year, I go to a Steak n' Shake and get a Turtle Caramel Nut shake and my lower lip swells up and starts to itch. And I have to ask, why God? Was that really necessary? The terrible skin wasn't enough, but not I can't eat almonds? What's next? Pecans? Peanuts? I can give up Almond Joys, but pecan pie? Reese's Cups? That's just cruel.

God sure is punking me good these days...

06:20 am: Religious Issues...
So I'm working on one of my stories and I'm going an odd direction with it. In my story, two boys who are not religious and one is an admitted but not out homosexual befriend a group of kids who are outspoken Christians. If you know nothing about what I write, it's all slash, boyxboy relationships. So, in case it's not obvious, these kinds of situations never go well in my genre.

In most slash stories where Christians are involved, the gay friends come out and the Christian friends immediately shun them and are often abusive. In my story, the Christians will act how I as a Christian react to gay people, with love and tolerance. Why am I doing this, you may ask.

I HATE how Christians are portrayed in the media. If you watch any movie or TV show, read any book, Christians are cruel, unforgiving people and are always corrupt. I go to a Christian school where everyone is Christian and yes, sure there are people who are only keeping up appearances and whatnot, but there are many loving people who are truly devoted to their faith because its what they believe. I have many Christian friends with gay friends that they do not shun, persecute, or secretly bash. My best friend is an amazing Christian who reads her Bible every day because she loves to spend time with God and she has several gay friends and has watched Get Real and Queer as Folk with me.

So if that's reality, why is that never shown? Why in movies are the priests always secretly perverts? Why does the Christian woman have to freak out and call her daughter a demon child when she just loves to dance? Why is the negative shown when there are many positives? Well, I'm taking a stand. I'm making a statement. Not all Christians are terrible hypocritical bigots. So deal with it.

05:53 am: What HAPPENED??????
So so SO pissed off!!!! So I brought my thumb drive home with me with my writing on it, right? I haven't written anything in MONTHS so I was really excited when I got inspiration to write. I sat down and wrote like 3 short chapters, about 2-4 pages, then I wrote one chapter that was 8 pages. Then today, I look at it and APPARENTLY I forgot to save after writing those 8 pages and now I only have two. WHERE DID THOSE OTHER SIX PAGES GO???!?!?!?! I totally remeber saving them...

I want to cry. It's six am and I can't fricking sleep and Word 2007 sucks ass. Boooooo.

09:19 am: Frustrations
I am sssssssooooooooooooo pissed. I seem to only be upset when I post to this...

Anyway, I spent the summer in Sendai, Japan. I was there for over 2 months. I left early August. Then I learned that who played in Sendai Thursday evening? ARASHI!!! Yes, as in the geeky boy-band I'm obsessed with. My love for them is surpassed only by my love for Jesus. And maybe my mom. I'm not sure. So I left TWO WEEKS early. If I'd just stayed a little longer I could have seen them live. LIVE!!!! And I totally would have stayed. Which, anyone who talked to me while I was in Japan (basically just my team) knew that by the time we were going home I was ready to kill people and go HOME. I want to see my boys perform live....

06:40 am: I HATE EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So Trevor bought the new Harry Potter book. I'm waiting until he is finished to read it.

I decided to get on fanfiction.net to see if anyone had posted a new fic or if everyone was busy reading. This was assuming that the people who had posted would put spoiler alerts in their summaries. WRONG. The first fic, the summary was "How ************* survived the events of HP:DH" THANKS FOR SPOILING THAT ONE WHORE!!!

Then even worse. I get on LJ and I'm looking through my friends page and I'm scrolling down. SOME STUPID FUCKER PUT A LIST OF WHO DIES AND ON WHAT PAGE!!!! >_< What the fuck is WRONG with these people? It was in a LARGE FONT and BOLD. What the fuck? WHAT THE FUCK?!?!? I'm so freaking livid right now. Why the hell would some one DO THAT? It doesn't even make SENSE. I wish I knew where they lived so I could mail a bomb to their house. Fucktard.

I'm not getting on the internet again until I've read the books. Assholes.

11:39 pm: UPDATE FROM JAPAN!!!!
So I completely forgot about LJ until this point. It wasn't until early July that we got internet anyway, so I had a long time without it. It was easier than I thought it'd be. One of these days I may have to go without internet for a while to try and get rid of my pathetic addiction.

So if you're not reading my xanga, you are missing out on life because that's where I'm putting all of my Japan updates. I'm 99.9% sure I gave everyone the website URL, but if you don't know it's xanga.com/megtojapan

I miss everyone so much! I've got 3 weeks left, but I am so ready to come home. The only time I'm not thinking about home is when I'm with the students so I'm trying to make as many appointments with them as possible so I'm not constantly homesick. Living away from home for so long without a way to contact your friends is incredibly tough, especially when you e-mail them and they don't reply. Meanies.

BTW, if anyone reading this has Ruth's cell number, could you please e-mail it to me? I really want to talk to her, but I don't have her number memorized and my mom doesn't know how to get it out of my phone because she had my service turned off. Oh, I'll be getting a new number when I get back, so I'll be sure to get that to whoever wants it later.

Ok, other things to do time Laterz.

11:06 pm: My Poor Fandoms...
I only joined this site so I would have easy access to constant fanfiction and it's been working out great. One problem, though, is how much of this fiction is very pornographic and caters to many different fetishes and I have to wade through all of it to find my cutesy romance stories I love so well.

Those groups that cater to the harsher stuff are apparently getting SLAMMED by a group called Warriors for Innocence. A lot of groups and accounts have been deleted. Here's the part that confuses me.

People are saying that they've posted writing to some of these groups and now their writing has been lost with the deletion of the group. Ok, what the hell? Who doesn't back that stuff up? I have all of my stories on my hard drive, my external hard drive, a flash drive, and all stories are posted to multiple places so if something happens, I can get them easily. Am I honestly to believe that other people don't do the same thing? Craaazy...

That's all I had to say. I FLY OUT TO JAPAN ON SATURDAY!!! One hour to O'Hare, then 13 hours to Narita. OOh, boy. This is gonna be fun.

09:43 pm: So today was my birthday. I think I would have exploded if I hadn't had people send me notes on facebook. I never realized how important my birthday was. Ruth called me at about 5 pm and had her sisters sing to me and I started crying because that was the first time anybody sang to me today.

My roommates are pretty cool for the summer, but they are constantly out doing things and I'm going a little crazy. Towards the end of the year, I was desperate for alone time, but now that I'm alone all day every day, I miss all of my friends and I want to spend time with people, especially today.

I have a paper to write, but I don't want to.

07:20 am: From Yahoo! on Virginia Tech
The massacre has revived the debate over U.S. gun control laws, which are the most lenient in the Western world.

ABC News reported that one of the guns, a 9mm Glock, and ammunition were purchased on March 13 for $571 from a shop about 30 miles from the Virginia Tech campus.

President George W. Bush, in an interview on NBC on Tuesday, refused to answer questions on the gun control issue.

"Now is not the time," he said. "I'm more interested in helping people heal right now. And that's why we're here."

Way to go, Dubya. Way to go.

07:00 am: Avril's Girlfriend Video
Ok, so it's pretty easy to figure out that I've hated Avril Lavigne since she entered the music scene. Her music's overplayed, unoriginal, and obnoxious. I can't STAND her. But my kid sister completely loved her when she first came out. Then when her second CD came out, she bought it, but thankfully she didn't listen to it every hour of every day like the other one. Now she has a new video out and I assume a new CD. My sister (Bethany) was watching the video while I was in the room and I am HORRIFIED by what I saw in that video.

The song is "Girlfriend" and the lyrics are things like "Hey Hey, You You/ I don't like your girlfriend/ Hey Hey, You You/ I think you need a new one" It's cut with a nerdy red-head dating a scene kid and a scene girl sees them and decides to steal the boy so she and her friends pester the red-head until she wins the guy over.

What kind of message is this sending to the teenage girls of today? That it's ok to just be mean and cruel to someone because they're dating someone you want? And the guy just stands there and watches this girl hurting his girlfriend and ends up making out with her in the end. I know the video is just supposed to be fun, but it's sending a horrible message. If I had been the red-head in this video, I would've slapped the guy and left as soon as it started. Any guy that fickle isn't worth keeping and he'd dump the new girl as soon as someone else that looked pretty came along. What is going through Avril's head? She must know by that horrible tie-craze that she has insane influence with teenage girls and this is what she's telling them? If you want a guy, be a total b*tch? That relationships don't matter? Well, high school ones don't, but things you do in high school can follow you for a long time.

Anyway, can I get an amen? Anybody gonna Anti-Avril it up with me?

11:49 am: Colorado Springs

Ok, I'm currently in Colorado Springs, which is absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!  I'm about to fly out and head back home.  I'm really sad about it actually.  I wish this orientation thing had been longer (It was a weekend thing to prepare me for my trip to Japan) because I met SO many amazing people and I CAN'T WAIT for this trip so I can get to know them better.  This was an amaazing experience for me.  I feel enriched spiritually, I feel 150% more prepared for raising support and going on this trip and I feel SO much faith in God right now, it's amazing.  

This mission trip is going to be so fulfilling.  I'm so excited about going to Japan and being on the front lines fighting for God.  This is such an amazing feeling that I haven't had in such a long time.  I really think this is what my heart needed to find it's way back to where God wants it to be and I feel so ready to make amazing changes in my life to better serve Him.  

Can't wait to tell everyone about it.  I know a lot of you reading this can't give me any support financially, but if you could keep me and my team in your prayers as we prepare for our journey, I know it would help SO much.  I love you all!! ^_^